Mother's Day Bitterness

For some reason I was really feeling bitter this mother's day. It's as if nothing is going my way these days. I decided to test on mothers day. Big mistake! Of course it was a BFN and then AF showed shortly after. I had to deal with the fact that there will be no baby and I will have to officially start TTA until after the surgery. Surgery is scheduled for July 21st and I will be out of baby making commission until about mid September. Im just feeling so torn right now. I know the surgery is what I should do but I want a baby more than ever now and I feel like I have to put my life on hold for this surgery. A surgery that may or may not work. To make things worse we went out Sat night before mothers day and out of 30 women I was the only one without children. OK VENT OVER. Thanks for listening.